kanicspot

2007-11-30T04:37:00.001-08:00

Enjoy your summer :)

2007-11-20T03:46:00.000-08:00

Today I fed some big cats.

The only constant is this accelerated rate of change. Thanks Peter.

2007-11-18T06:32:00.001-08:00

In light she could look beautiful. Congratulations.

2007-06-16T22:25:00.000-07:00

Since I last posted, I landed a job working full time as lead designer with Fat City. The company deals in digital media production -totally up my alley. So far it's been close to great. Good people + all the equipment I need ...the rest is up to me. I've had a lot of positive feedback from the work I've been doing which I'm very appreciative of, but outside of this my time management has been poor (hence the lack of posts).

I finally left my weekend job at Next Byte after 5 years to allow myself more time. Still, books I desperately want to read have been collecting dust, next to other intentions. I've been progressing with my music though. I simply need to allow myself more time to familiarise myself with tools.

There's so much I could talk about since I last posted, but I hate digging around in the past... basically all has been pretty well and things are totally heading in the right direction, thanks to hope and aspiration.

The past week has also been enjoyable, creating the Fat City site and spending always well spent time with O. OK.

2007-04-02T04:44:00.000-07:00

I've just returned from Sydney (pictured) where Eric, O and I (pictured) attended Semi Permanent.

We listened to world class creatives, like James Jean (pictured) talk about when and why and how and why. It was reassuring and inspiring to buggery.

2007-03-13T08:02:00.000-07:00

The Fringe Festival (pictured) has begun. It's the few weeks of the year my self-concious city bustles with positive energy. This includes the Womad Music Festival which I attended on the weekend with a mate Simon. Very funny guy. After seeing Mad Professor which was very cool, we bumped into Kirsty -whom I broke in with last year. I had a thing for her -and still do. She was a little tipsy, but it still appeared as though she was interested...alas, at the end of the evening she stumbled off with some hipster guys. I mean, they were blowng bubbles. I think I need to make my intentions clearer, but I fear two things: making someone uncomfortable and rejection. I always have -but I used to combat this with substances and I'm having trouble calibratng with sobriety.

I feel there's a perfect analogy between my fear of rejection from girls and grinding a curb. Let me explain;

I don't fear the curb, I fear falling from the curb after confessing my ability/I don't fear the girl, I fear rejection from the girl after confessing my feelings.

I fall or stumble upon the curb when I over analyse what I'm doing/I fail to attract the girl when I over analyse what I'm doing.

The more I attempt (fail or not) the more I calibrate, the better the result... why can't I just listen to logic.

2007-03-05T05:03:00.000-08:00

When your days come and go, void of any passionate exchange between you and those you admire, those you love, your reference of who you are begins to unravel, -it comes apart thread by thread. Physically and mentally, I'm more active than I've ever been. My days are filled to the brim. A single bee buzzing around in a hive. I'm proud of what I'm achieving, but I feel so two-dimensional. The honeycomb resonates and it's a distracting reminder. It's my choice, right.

This is no 'rant' -things are well- I tend to jot down what I'm thinking in the moment, and I should probably just get laid soon too.. before I forget how to..

Sick, it's March. My favourite month. I can't remember exactly why, but I had a few fortunate March's when I was young. It's also the month that brings me Womad, my favourite music festival.

2007-03-03T00:02:00.000-08:00

Riding. Lifting. Watching. Listening. Drawing. Clicking. Sticking. Cranking. Wanking (Sob/'Fuck'). I highly recommend purchasing
Fabriclive 23: Death in Vegas. You'll love it, I promise.

Perfection's name is Kirsten. She paints. Kill me.

2007-02-25T00:39:00.000-08:00

I ENJOY THE SKY. MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD. IT'S SO HUMBLE AND ANSWERS ANYTHING YOU ASK SINCERELY. WHAT'S WITH THE NEO-NARCISSISM? I GUESS WE'VE ALWAYS BEEN SELF-ABSORBED. GENERATION MYSPACE. HAVING A WINJE SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO. TALK LESS. ENJOY MORE SCENERY. TEN THOUSAND YEARS OF BAD BEHAVIOR. WHAT SHALL WE DO NEXT?..

2007-02-07T06:22:00.000-08:00

Steve Jobs' thoughts on music. I concur.

2007-02-04T06:07:00.000-08:00

We feel alive by demonstrating our ego, that is, our self esteem or self importance, 'the mediator between the conscious and the unconscious'. Love is the driving force behind the most dramatic demonstrations of this. So therefore is love not just a catalyst to prove your mediation deserves a place in genetic evolution? I think it's a little biased, you know, considering the situation and all.

Sorry, one of those days, not saying what I should to a girl I shouldn't be saying what I should to.

2007-02-01T07:09:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow I head to Australia's most popular music festival, the Big Day Out. I will witness some very passionate people at the top of their game. Thank you in advance for listening to yourselves.

2007-01-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

Australia Day was enjoyed by my Brother and I (pictured) at Dad's this year with snags, Vegemite, David Williamson and blue sky present. My highlight was conversing with a talented graphic designer, Kel Gibb, who's been in the game for over 30 years. He reminded me of myself. This was reassuring.

The highlight of the weekend was eye contact with a girl I probably shouldn't be with.

Four tracks down too.

Good at forming bad habits, getting better at forming good habits.

Peace.

2007-01-25T07:34:00.000-08:00

A meal was enjoyed (pictured) this evening in the company of my Mum, Brother, Aunty and Uncle. Everyone felt that time is indeed speeding up, so we touched on Novelty Theory. I enjoy talking about this kinda stuff, because we can all throw our thoughts into the mix. With knowledge being that which is gained along our ways, our paths, our tumbles, our trails, we all possess our own unique insights. Thanks Terrence for most of my reference :P When I'm not chasing delusions, I have time to gather my thoughts and my love goes out to you all.. Peace.

All that she said was true.

2007-01-24T06:08:00.001-08:00

I've witnessed perfection -she works at an art supplies store.

2007-01-23T05:12:00.000-08:00

Kangaroo gives Dot a root to eat, called the "Root of Understanding," but warns, "You mustn't eat too much ... If you eat too much, you'll know too much."

-Dot and the Kangaroo

2007-01-23T02:32:00.000-08:00

I could've used this feeling yesterday.

2007-01-21T05:27:00.001-08:00

We are the music makers,
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea-breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams;—
World-losers and world-forsakers,
On whom the pale moon gleams:
Yet we are the movers and shakers
Of the world for ever, it seems.

-Arthur William Edgar O'Shaughnessy

2007-01-20T03:46:00.000-08:00

Solid rain for two solid days. The middle of Winter in the middle of Summer. Ideal conditions for tinkering and finishing off a new track. Oh yeah, I'm kicking my ass to finish a new track every week, due on Sunday night. So far I've been very pleased with the results and have recieved some nice feedback too. Developments on all sorts of fronts...crotch shots of blue cotton panties.....man...how can I even...

2007-01-17T02:25:00.000-08:00

I've moved into the silver mine (pictured) and I have my lappy. I'm riding up almost everyday and it's one killer up hiller. This was a point in my timeline I envisioned vividly and it feels strange to be living it. I went and saw an absolutely astonishing gig, two Saturdays ago (hate backtracking but it's worthy of a mention) by Trentemøller. No one would come along, but I met Dwayne there (who told us about it) and his new girlfriend (who rocks!). He performed minimal tech on a Rowland 303 with a lappy running Logic, whilst his DJ was on some turns. It blew my mind and Dwayne, who's been from here to Gundagi, said it was possibly the best show he's seen. As you can imagine, ..so fucking glad I went lonesome. Different drums n shit eh. Peace.

2007-01-16T04:27:00.000-08:00

“If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.” -Henry David Thoreau

Welcome To 2007.

2006-12-31T22:37:00.000-08:00

Be specific about what you want. Chase it aggressively. Start failing. Start learning. We're lovers not fighters.

Sincerity.

2006-12-24T06:42:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas. I wish you all the best for the coming year. Chase your dreams.

I Could Do Nothing (If I Really Tried Hard).

2006-12-10T05:42:00.000-08:00

Firstly, welcome new readers. For those of you who still stick your head over the fence of 'That Ol' Crazy Dog' Dan's back fence, here's some schtuff: Still rolling in the same direction as I have been over the last year...this means editing/designing as freelance, steering clear of booze and booze hounds, diggin' bangin' tunes, and to be really honest with you, enjoying life.
I'm moving into a studio (that just so happens to be a converted silver mine) next week with an experienced editor named Jeremy which I'm really looking forward to. As my G5 will be in the mine, I'll be getting a new lappy to use at home and to zip around with....can't wait! Christmas and the holiday season is just around the corner and with it some shows I'd be really keen to check out. Exciting times. Hope you're well.

Association Nation.

2006-11-29T05:17:00.000-08:00

Note to self and others: Do not use beloved music for the soundtrack of an edit you're working on...regardless of how 'perfect' it fits. There's a ton of tracks out there. Explore new horizons.

Ivan Pavlov

Elegancespinsbelowandabove.

2006-11-16T06:40:00.000-08:00

Loved ones. Good intentions. Affair. Misunderstanding. Unaware. Self aware. Memory lapse. Deliberate. Amusement. Loved ones. Good Intentions. Values.

Reassessing My Inventory.

2006-11-13T20:32:00.000-08:00

"If you say in the first chapter that there is a rifle hanging on the wall, in the second or third chapter it absolutely must go off. If it's not going to be fired, it shouldn't be hanging there."

Chekhov's Gun

But I Just Want To Get Off.

2006-11-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

"I think the main reason for all this fluff is that most designers don't believe in anything...."

"When your conscience is so flexible, how can you do strong design?"

-Stefan Sagmeister

Change Agent.

2006-11-02T21:06:00.000-08:00

Read: The Wikipedia and the Death of Archeology

It's Up For Grabs.

2006-10-31T20:58:00.000-08:00

Hey you. Sailing in the right direction, but I lost my sunnies. Will get a new pair soon. I turned 24 on Saturday and had a few crazy characters around for a sort of 'celebration'. After being sober for a year (thanks) I feel people's expectations of my crazy-fuckr-look-at-him-strut personality have permanently lulled, which is a very good thing. I'm finally feeling comfortable in this skin, care little about what I couldn't care less about and enjoying the things I always did, unconditionally. Only in the last few months have I started to offer my creative services seriously and I'm already beginning to enjoy a part of the gun-for-hire industry I know I will grow to love and rely on: referrals. So far I've taken every job, regardless of pay, very seriously and in return clients are holding extra buckets under the udders. Looks like I'll be doing The People's Republic's next showreel too! (and further down the track the next one!...yeah I know, plan ahead don't they). Now I'm starting to understand the real meaning of 'earning a living'. Feed your chia pet...sparingly, water restrictions have been implemented. OH and yeah, Batman Year has begun. Peath.

Bonus Melon Gum.

2006-10-05T22:24:00.000-07:00

An abundance of well and fully! Completed DVD and print design work for The People's Republic of Animation and they were mighty chuffed (sick!). Met some really cool people through the job too! Pretty much finished (waiting for final approval) the lil myspace feature vid for Wolf and Cub which turned out half decent too. Now, time to chase some music vids and scantily clad women! Saw Mix Master Mike and Krafty Kuts last Friday night for my mate Aidan's 24th which was sick, but I stayed up all night, crashed on a friends couch cuddling a girl named Vic, woke up, went back to mine and watched some cartoons with her, then crashed out all day sunday...and wound up with a really messed up immune system, feeling sketchy as which I contribute to the lack of warm attire and er...the damiana concentrate I guzzled, but feeling all good now and excited about some work posibilities around the corner.....feed your chia pet.....and your chia pet will feed you. Peeas :P

Barnacle Hotspot.

2006-09-24T22:50:00.000-07:00

Got the job creating a DVD and some other design work for The People's Republic of Animation. Time for a new high tide mark.

I Choose Support.

2006-09-24T17:52:00.000-07:00

OK, I Choose Noise kicks ass. Go BUY it!

Captains Cog.

2006-09-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

Thought I'd better check in. All is well.

I'm editing a promo video for Wolf & Cub which I'll finish up next week. This has been fun and closer to where I want to be/what I want to be and hopefully I'll be doing some design work for a really cool animation company soon as well. I watched Hayao Miyazaki's Porco Rosso about twenty minutes ago and I highly recommend this to anyone. I also just bought I Choose Noise by Hybrid which I'm listening to at this very moment, and it's sounding very cool! Give it a spin.

I know my blogs becomming very stale, almost like a work/creative report or something. To be honest I haven't been socialising a great deal and that's probably not the best thing. A good friend once told me that I needed a good dose of outside perspective and I reckon that would be apt at the moment. I think I need to find some people I have more in common with maybe, somone who'd shine a light on the part of my soul that needs to do some growing. Who knows. I feel like I'm stuck in a transitional period because my heads moved on but my body hasn't. I'll always be fine, because you'll always be fine. Give me an artline, some reflex, and some cola candy. I'm a sucker for cola candy.

In And Under.

2006-09-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

Things are well.

We had the launch of The Alt on Saturday, a company for which I developed branding and an identity. The evening was good fun and to be honest I was rather overwhelmed by the praise for my work (thanks again guys!). It concerns me though, that people follow a misconception about talent. So many people approaching me..."Oh, you're so talented!" but they should be saying "Oh, you could be bothered!" because talent is just time and effort (and cause I guess).

As I'm sure I mentioned I spent a long time polishing a new showreel of my work, and I finally started to send it out the week before last. From this I've already received some (possibly regular) freelance design work, and some good feedback.

Getting better at Logic and Final Cut and all the things I really enjoy atm. These passions are all I care about now.

Took a stab in the dark, as I regularly do, and bought 'Classics' by Ratatat. I highly recommend this album.

RIP Steve Irwin.

Red Carpet, Blue Shirt, Cold Theatre, Warm Pizza, Dry Humour.

2006-08-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

Took Sinamin to the premier of the feature film I worked on this evening. My Brother came along with his lady friend too. Went down well, and was kinda cool to see my name up on the big screen :) My goals are getting clearer and I'm more motivated now than ever. It's this wondrful tacking between negative and positive experiences that fills the sails with wind.

Big Meals For The Imagination.

2006-08-02T21:34:00.000-07:00

Mulholland Drive on Monday, Dune on Tuesday and Brazil on Wednesday. Three refreshing worlds to splash across my synapses. Now, Tonight....

Meeting Adjourned.

2006-07-26T21:53:00.000-07:00

And the buzz gets stronger...

Pitying The Fool (Who's Pitying The Fool).

2006-07-26T20:23:00.000-07:00

There's no time like the present. Subjectively speaking this is indeed true. It might just be the sun, but I'm getting a growing reminder of a time and place I enjoyed, which reminds me of a time and place I did not enjoy. Mixed emotions and a juvenile attachment to the scars that made me as strong as I am today. Regardless there's a buzz in there somewhere that resonates inside me. This might be productive and I've felt like skating everyday. I just worked through the night, editing without a wink and it's 1PM, and I have to meet a client in an hour. Whatever's not gonna make you stronger will surely be your downfall. My tracks are getting pretty darn good. The most exciting development in my life right now. We think the same things at the same time. We just can't do anything about it. Thanks Thom, you got me through the night.

The Kind Of Variable I Like.

2006-07-16T21:10:00.000-07:00

Baby Steps. My visual/audio editing/creation skills are evolving at a steady rate. This week I will publish a collection of my work on a new Showreel DVD. Let me know if you'd like a copy and I'll post one out. Also finished creating the branding and identity for one of my mates companies, which was very well recieved. Olys been down for a few days which has been good fun. Everything is close to where I want it, so I really can't complain. Still, every morning I'll ask myself what's good in my life, and what still needs to be done. The latter never seems to decrease. I guess I'd be in a spot if it did. Keep on.

Shine On.

2006-07-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

R.I.P Sid, thanks for everything.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sid_Barret

Pull Out Then Up.

2006-07-01T07:03:00.000-07:00

Been a while folks.
I'll try to make this a more regular occurence again.
So much going on, which is what I'm always gonna need to 'keep this real'.

I just finished busting my ass to complete a lengthy in-house training DVD for a large retail chain and the results were commendable. Had my good friend June from Bristol in England stay with me for a week and it was an enjoyable time indeed. This reassured me that spending an extended period of time with me is not as intollerable as I thought. Oh yeah, oozing self confidence. She seemed to have a blast anyway. I've been catching up with Sinamin on a slow, steady and regular basis which is another high point in my corner at present. She's amazing. Just what the doctor ordered. Oh, and its her 22nd Birthday tomorrow!

My animation is STILL on hold which is pissing me off, but at least the creative juices are flowing and full of pulp. I've almost finished an updated deluxe version of my creative showreel which I'll send out to friends and clients next week. Currently I'm working on two complete rebrandings of a couple of friends companies...which so far has been very enjoyable. It's nice to flex my static visual comunication skills once in a while. Getting stuck into a couple of new tracks as well. I should consider getting a site up so you who are interested can see some of my work...what do ya reckon?

You are my temptation you are my temptation to do what I knew was wrong. I walk the line.
Keep Well. You're my inspiration.
Peas and Broccoli.

Living To Learn. Learning To Live.

2006-06-01T09:52:00.000-07:00

illustration by andy gilmore (http://birdbrid.blogspot.com)
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Busy as ever and having a blast. Where do I start?..

Had a meeting today with the people I'm cutting a music video for and it went well. Just finished cutting another commercial for my older brother. Half way through production on a new audio track which is very exciting. Picked up more casual retail work for some extra cash and also doing some video conversion for a company with the likelihood of repeat business. Production on my animation is the only thing lagging right now but I'll be diving back into that very shortly.

Went bowling with my brother tonight which was great. In the second game I scored 151 which aint bad! Met a really sweet girl named Sinamin (I've heard them all!) and will hopefully see her again soon. My mate Cian's 23rd birthday celebration is on this Saturday evening which will be cool too.

Idle time just feels like wasted time to me now. Still not drinking and still don't intend to. It just seems like such a waste of time to me now. For a long time I used to enjoy it so much...on many occasions, but that time has come and gone. You'd think with all this sober time I could fit in some skating!...something on my to-do-list to get much better at :)

Thanks for the positive influences. Much appreciated. You know who you are!

Peas and Carrots.

On Purpose.

2006-04-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

gettingclean (www.jamesjean.com)
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Today's my six month anniversary of sobriety. My freelance work is gaining momentum. I've begun production on an animation I'd like to see wrapped by my 24th. My first television commercial (shot/edited by yours truly) went to air last week (hey, like Lara said, least it aint Dorritos). Pieces of my puzzle are falling back into place. I have stability, I might have some enjoyment, but oh do I miss love.

I bought my copy of Tool's latest album 10, 000 Days at the midnight release last night and in every way the package has exceeded my expectations. They have clearly lifted the art of presentation, the presentation of art, to new heights. If the music isn't your cup of tea, please buy it for the package design. You won't be disappointed.

We're all a mix of good genes, bad genes, good habits, bad habits. A great piece of advice I was given is to 'assume that everyone you meet is fighting a mighty battle.' I think in most cases you'd assume correctly. Keep doing me proud. Peace.

And The Truth Is Years Away.

2006-04-16T04:17:00.000-07:00

attiya
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

I'm back from my tour of the top end. My keyboard jocky hands wrapped firmly around handlines caught firmly in the mouths of sharks bigger than me. The barrels of a Winston twelve-gage smoked in my clasp after taking down a policeman in a friendly trap shoot. Suns set. Sandflies nourished. Frames of reference waltzed. XXXX Gold beer. Zero Coke. Water. Red Emperor. You just have to try the Emperor. Glad to be back. Blackjack. Jackpot. And the truth is years away.

Heartthrob (And Acting Like I Don't Need Everything).

2006-04-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

Heartthrob
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

The funny games we play. I haven't been drinking alcohol for ages now. I understand why we do, why we don't. I understand the relative of the sedative now, but the misinformation is astronomical. The misinformation is absolutley astronomical. I've started constructing to-do lists each night before I go to bed consisting of tasks for the following day. This has done wonders for my productivity. Without these lists I'll wonder aimlessly and achieve a fraction of the desired. Played poker with good friends last week and scored my skates back off a mate so I plan to go skating asap. Met up with Kirsty in town on Saturday evening who was out celebrating her friend Mel's 20th Birthday. Did I mention she can dance! ;) Afterward, Mel, Dan, Kirsty and I went for pancakes (at 6am!). Was a very long but enjoyable evening. Remember that your state of mind is determined by the information you feed it with. Peas.

Happy 23rd Birthday Oly

2006-03-22T16:59:00.000-08:00

23
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Thanks for being the mate you are. I wish you all the best of persistence for your 23rd year of consciousness. Celebrate this moment. Rocket on.

(Yes, the image is the first google result for 23 :D)

Peas.

Give Me Some Frequencies.

2006-03-22T02:11:00.000-08:00

Womad2006
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Man what fun. O was down again from Melb and stayed for over a week. Possibly the best time to visit Adelaide as we had our famous Fringe Festival on. This included Womadelaide in the Botanic Park (picured before and after the event). I went with O and took a girl named Kirsty and showed her how to get down to the sounds of Talvin Singh..then again, she showed me, being the professional dancer and all :) O and I went again the following night as well and in the pouring rain we saw the famous Jimmy Cliff!
I also had my Aunties 50th Birthday last Saturday, for which I created a DVD presention with my Uncle Bob. The night went very smoothly and it seemed my Aunty Jen was very happy with the entire event (including my vid!) Afterwards I met O at Blackcats and saw DJ Friction which was surprisingly fantastic. I'm getting enough work to keep me afloat, but there were just so many distractions last week so I've barely had the time to draw or create music...time management has never been one of my strongest points but it's definitely improving!

So what's next?....settling down after the festivities, quoting and doing pre production on a music video, filming a commercial for my brother (Sorry Bill) drawing more...awaiting a fishing trip with my Bro and Father!...as long as you're having fun...everthing's a sine wave if you focus pull correctly. Love you.

I Must Keep Reminding Myself Of This.

2006-03-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

ßø: bones are so bloody complex, every surface curves and flows into another shape, total disregard for the artist who has to draw dem

˚∂: they're beautiful
˚∂: music, drawing, the garden, smiling, the sun
˚∂: one day
˚∂: but for now,
˚∂: there's knowledge to gain
˚∂: reference to frame
˚∂: embrace this moment :)

ßø: my teeth smell like poo
ßø: wish I never flossed, then I wouldn't know the smell of tooth poo
ßø: ahhh fuck, yes
ßø: embrace embrace!!! :D

But Now I'm Home, And I'm Free.

2006-02-23T05:19:00.000-08:00

Bob
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Hangin' with my Uncle Bob is always a worthwhile experience. The largest general frame of reference I know of. One of Australia's greatest sculptors as well. Oh and yes, he passed the acid test.

Synchronise Sucker and Free Fall.

2006-02-21T23:33:00.000-08:00

freefall
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Realise you'll always know nothing and start from there...

Tweekend.

2006-02-19T19:14:00.000-08:00

O
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

O got back frrom Thailand and stayed at Damo's for a WEEKEND IN ADELAIDE. Much fun was had (psychics, lions tail, bananas, baklava, ginger beer, puppet shows, funky djs, psy-trance-karaoke and a GIRL NAMED BEACH) as you can pretty much always expect from the synergy. Dave turned 21 today as well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVE!

Went house hunting with Aidan. Found a cute lil' piece of surburbian paradise not far from here, but we snoozed. Started making mistakes in Reason 3 again. Enjoying the progress. My animation is coming along too (you haven't heard?). Joe's gonna dedicate Monday to music production. Bloody good to see, if he sticks at it he'll be massiv. Keep training n00bs. Keep making mistakes...keep making.... keep.. ... ke.. keep making... FUCK!

2006-02-15T00:04:00.000-08:00

Cheetah
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

The Keeper, The Cheetah and I, as promised :)

2006-02-15T00:00:00.000-08:00

Bondi
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Bondi/Fatboy highlights as I promised :)

On The Way (To Gaining Everything)

2006-01-13T05:47:00.000-08:00

everythingtogain
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

O and I on our way to Sydney, thought we'd have a quick snap together at the famous 'Dog On The Tucker Box'. Still want to get a Fatboy shot up and I hate dealing with retrospect but it shall be done once I find my Bluetooth dongle in my room, which is like finding a....well, bluetooth dongle in my room :D

Random updates: Enjoying riding a lot more and drawing, trying to relax, not take things so seriously, still of the booze,..I shot a short recently and It went well I think! ..planning another one... damn...I need to find my dongle :D Speak soon, love you lots.

It's Just A Ride.

2006-01-12T08:18:00.000-08:00

Enjoy Yourself. Read Noam Chomsky. Listen To Bill Hicks. Stop Drinking. Stop Watching TV. Loose Your Ego. Help A Stranger. Plant A Tree. Enjoy Yourself.

Nice Guys Finish Last. Assholes Think It's a Race.

2006-01-03T20:32:00.000-08:00

There is a fine line between thinking too little and too much. The former will cause grief for a lot of people. The latter will cause a lot of grief for you. Picture yourself a clown on a roller-coaster. You'll put everyone at ease, even the assholes.

Humans Vs. Dolphins And The World

2006-01-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

Today I had the privelage of stroking a Cheetah. Killer Chrissie present Mum! I'm so going to get FatBoy and Cheetah pics up here soon.

Don't record life and watch it in a lower resolution later.

I Feel Loved.

2006-01-01T04:07:00.000-08:00

Merry Chrissie/Happy New Years and all that fluff! My blog's 1 year old today and what a rides it's been. I hope I've been entertaining at the least. For new years me and my best mate drove over a 1000k's to the greatest party Australia had to offer... thats rrriiiight....FAT BOY SLIM / BONDI BEACH!!!! was a fab show indeed and well worth the seconds of preparation and hours of effort that got us to the shore. Seriously wishing you put in your best for 2006. Be spontaneous. Dreams are just possibilities that involve more persistance..chase them, it'll be worth it. Relax and stop worrying..theres no need to fear anything...HAVE FUN, ITS JUST A RIDE!!!!!!

IfIhadntbecomewouldIbebecauseIam?

2005-12-17T10:20:00.000-08:00

thatisthat
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

I'm 23 years old.
I feel I'm done with substance abuse.
I feel I don't want to touch alcohol ever again.
I feel I'm done with small talk, time wasting, ignorance and fevered egos.

I feel for the first time in a long time I can do what I feel like; drawing, filming, riding, playing music and thinking.

Persistence is my new favourite word.
I still love what you really want to be. I still think you can make it.

2005-12-14T15:12:00.000-08:00

œPlease stop sweeping.
¥There's dirt everywhere.
œThen sweep somewhere else ...THERE'S DIRT EVERYWHERE.

High-Horses And Hand-Helds Dont Mix.

2005-12-14T06:43:00.000-08:00

That's My Baby
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Said she had mixed feelings.
Mixed feelings about this.
Left me with mixed feelings.

I have always had mixed feelings.

That's my baby.

Plant the seeds.

2005-11-15T04:05:00.000-08:00

Do you want to buy some seeds?
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

A close friend and I decided to put a flower in the barrel of a cannon belonging to the Australian Army during a 'look how big my dick is' demonstration/recruitment in our shopping mall. It was well worth the Four Dollars.

Motivation is the only thing you should be envious of.
Oh, and I want some moon shoes for christmas (hint hint).

Back In Orbit.

2005-10-31T04:14:00.000-08:00

Nick and I
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

I had a party on Saturday celebrating the beginning of my 23rd year. I hadn't put as much preparation in this time round, but I had a surprisingly good turn out with a few blasts from the past. Nick and I (picture) have apparently been best mates since our second week of existence. It's always a pleasure to be in his company. Everyone seemed to have a ball so I enjoyed myself by watching everyone else enjoy themselves. You reflect the atmosphere you surround yourself with, so choose wisely.

DOP

2005-10-21T03:41:00.000-07:00

DOP
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

One of the opportunities I've ceased recently has been working as an assistant art director on a feature film. Has a nice ring to it doesn't it; 'assistant art director on a feature film' -it's not as glossy as it sounds, however it allows me to sit back like a fly on the wall and soak in the knowledge. I've mostly learnt about lightning which I'd like to incorperate into my next projects. Today the D.O.P (Director of Photography) was doing his thing from a crane we got for the day to shoot an outdoor scene. Cherio

Bird Flipping Satellites.

2005-10-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

Had dinner with my Uncle and Aunty this evening. Great meal, convo and fantastic weather. My Uncle is possibly the most intelligent person I know and a very talented artist. He's helping me construct a light fitting/prop for a music video which I plan to be filming in a month or so. I really should be spending more of my time hanging around my uncle, because he has a similar point of view and I have much to learn from him. I feel so far in life I've walked a similar path to what he did earlier in his. I think I can benefit greatly from his hindsight.

Raised on MTV. Raised on you and me.

The Tripod That Bleeds.

2005-10-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

I have been working everyday this week on the set of a feature film as an assistant art director. Learning heaps. Almost silent in the background, absorbing, observing. It's been great but I can't wait till I have a little more free time to invest in some projects, especially now with the information and motivation I've gathered on set. Love, Light, Peace. R.I.P Spike Milligan.

A Traffic Jam of Boats.

2005-10-02T20:15:00.000-07:00

I have been surrounded my some great opportunities recently and have decided to jump at every opportunity I get. No more messing around for me. Trying to decypher the meaning of life, or simply how to save the planet with the alteration of the human conscious while trying to look after my own little world, make money, become an independant man. Is my own little world the only one that exists? If everyone was responsible for their actions in their own little world, then you'd think that would make the world a reasonable place the live in. But each and every human skimps a little here and there, and that amounts the the wealth of problems we all face in the world together. Possibly.

Your only experience ever,

2005-09-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

is this.

The Warmth of Cold Tea.

2005-09-27T10:38:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've been up this late, working on something I'm being paid to do. It feels good. It's a little scary how rusty my professional-grade photoshop knowledge has gone, but it's reassuring that with each day I'm picking up all those handy tips, tricks and shortcuts once again.

I want to make a short film inspired by baraka... I'll try and start this on Sunday.

Enjoy this moment.

Goodnight.

Turn up the silence.

2005-09-25T06:59:00.000-07:00

Baraka -the best movie I have ever seen. Please see this soon.

Ego.

2005-09-23T07:58:00.000-07:00

This is the topic I am most interested in at the moment and it's messing with me big time. I used to have a huge ego. I've realised lately that the ego is a false sense of self. Without my ego and relising so many of my actions manifested from my ego, there doesn't seem to be a lot left. Is your personality just your ego? Is this the only thing which sets us apart from other organisms? Without ego, there is no psycological pain whatsoever... but it seems to be a little uninteresting. Was my ego my only point of interest? When you strip it all down, would you swap the Pleasure/Pain Cycle for Joy? This is as far as my thinking has ever taken me. The human ego is going to cause the end of the world, but its just too boring for us to live wiithout. Myabe we're too scared to live without them.

Key.

2005-09-15T21:47:00.000-07:00

Key
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

The key to happiness my friend, is living in the now. Please buy yourself Adam Freeland's Album 'Now and Them' and Eckhart Tolle's book 'The Power Of Now'. Adam's Album is a fantastic showcase of modern breakbeats with an underlying theme of living in the now. Eckhart's book will allow you to enjoy life a lot more by enlightening you to the dynamics of the mind and how and why you enjoy life, giving you the ability to do this constantly. Peace for now.

Nothing Lasts, But Nothing Lost.

2005-09-15T09:23:00.000-07:00

Nothing Lasts, But Nothing Lost
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Your life will suck more unless you forget your past and forget about the future. You can always deal with the now. Now is the only thing you will ever have to deal with. You will enjoy everything if now is all you think about. Please try and wrap you head around this -it will greatly improve your life and hopefully save the planet from time in time, because yes my friends, it doesn't exist outside our minds. Peace for now.

Er...this is er, no offense.....you are a robot aren't ya?

2005-09-12T20:19:00.000-07:00

Aren't Ya?
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

LONDON, England (Reuters) -- Make Poverty History (MPH), hailed as one of the most effective lobbying campaigns ever with its simple message and signature white wrist band, was banned on Monday from television and radio advertising in Britain.

Advertising watchdog Ofcom said the goals of its campaign, including an array of stars clicking their fingers to ram home the message that a child dies of preventable poverty every three seconds, were political and therefore outlawed.

"We have reached the unavoidable conclusion that MPH is a body whose objects are 'wholly or mainly' political as defined under the Act. MPH is therefore prohibited from advertising on television or radio,"

Eat more walnuts.

2005-08-31T01:09:00.000-07:00

Probably the best advice I can give you.

You Are What You Eat.

2005-08-28T05:18:00.000-07:00

I'm changing my lifestyle dramatically, because I can.
I'm going to try out life without meat, recreational/mind altering substances and negative music.
It will be interesting to see how much of an overall impact this has, especially socially.
I'm going to see how much I can enjoy myself, because its been a while.

New Discoveries.

2005-08-27T03:12:00.000-07:00

It's obvious I've been through some real rough patches lately and I only have myself to blame.
Sometimes I wonder if I subconsciously tried to undo myself, or wanted to see how far I could go down the rabbit hole.
I think I might have been running from the fact I believed my best days are behind me and never jumped off the merry-go-round to consolidate my thoughts. If I don't believe in myself anymore, then who will? For a long time I honestly believed we were discovering new things about reality -and in a way I guess we were, but it left me more upset with the information I found than when I begun. Ignorance is blissful, it must be... But it's selfish. I honestly believe the planet is in real trouble unless we all change how we live our lives dramatically. I'm going to start contributing as much as I can by helping myself get back on my feet.

Revelation.

2005-08-27T03:01:00.000-07:00

Reality is the only god there is.

Fear Is The Mind Killer.

2005-08-25T23:41:00.000-07:00

Sobriety starts now.

My Heartfelt Apology.

2005-08-24T09:12:00.000-07:00

Since at least the beginning of my blog, life has been a gradient from positive to negative... seriously, check it out if you have the time. I'm really sorry, especially to those who have looked into my eyes and seen me, as you'd imagine I didnt plan it to go this way. Far beyond what I expected. I thought a kid who never wanted to hurt a soul with good intention would survive. That kid was mudered by curiosity and the intent of assholes. I am something in-between that kid and death. Why the morbid and negative thoughts? I'm pretty sure no matter what, as you get older, life gets progressively worse.. maybe not, but there's definitly things you shouldn't understand or comprehend. There's definitly things I shouldn't understand. There's things I need so desperatley in my current state, but because of the desperation of the state I'm in, will never obtain. A catch22 you might say. Why should I exist? I wanted so desperatley to have a son. I wanted to show him how beautiful life can be, teach him that love is all that matters, its the only thing that really exists and everything else is just bullshit... teach him things I can't even teach myself anymore.....I can't even READ THE LINES I USED TO THINK I COULD READ BETWEEN.

3rd Wheel or Seperate Vehicle

2005-08-20T14:54:00.000-07:00

I keep holding on and on and ON.
I have been completely destroyed and it will be an absolute miracle if I get through this.
The only thing thats getting me through this is the fact the theres still something evidently alive...
Dan (me) is such a beautiful creation.... I have such a great perception... I've tried to heighten that perception
and its helped and also hindered, but in the end I still exist and the fire in my belly is still there and the ability to create magnificent work is still there, I can feel it.... the last few years have been such a hard struggle, -I could never have imagined existence to be so tough
but I'm here in the now and there's small flashes of time were I can feel ok, and thats fine with me... you can take your fancy social lives, your fancy cars, your fly women... I'll be fine, here in the now existing, with, as it seems, such a fantastic creative mind (thank god, because thats all I seem to have to begin with) much love to the human beings who make my existence worth while (you know who you are!) and double respect to the gold womenswho have given me beautiful love (yeah you know who you are!) -but seriously, both categories and the merges of are what keep me going so thankyou!

Important Information Is The Psychologically Abused Wife Of Time

2005-08-20T01:08:00.000-07:00

'Celebrate life 'till you're lifeless'
So a text message goes from a friend. The timing here was superb. I have lost everything but existence. I really have nothing important to say anymore, or I've just realised nothing is important enough to comment on. Why push the envelope, why watch it bend? What is the lack of interest?...no seriously, if everything is uninteresting, is that an individuals defective perspective or a heightened realisation that nothing matters.

Here, Well n Weathered and Something Else

2005-08-18T01:40:00.000-07:00

So I'm in Melbourne and so far it's been a blast. Caught Nine Inch Nails last night and it was amazing. Trent put his be all and end all into showing us how its done but then again, I didn't expect anything less.

Stay where you are.

2005-08-11T09:29:00.000-07:00

Woah I think I've stumbled into reality. Like the real reality. Bare bones reality. It not such a bad place, just a little too... exposed. Like theres nothing fake about it whatsoever, you see everything for what it is... everything. Takes a while getting used to, but its bearable.

Jetsettin'

2005-08-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

Its been months in the making and now the time has come. I'm off to Melbourne next week to hang with some over-the-border buddies, witness Nine Inch Nails bring the Rod Lava Arena to the floor and enjoy some refreshing new scenery. My older brother and my dad are travelling around Australia as we speak and if I'm lucky we'll rendevous in Melb. Speak soon, peace.

Evolve. Plant a tree you @#($!($#)(!(@#)(@#!!

2005-07-28T09:48:00.000-07:00

We're a parasite on mother earth and she's sick and tired of us, not impressed by our accomplishments anymore. Everyday we wake up and pay her mass amounts of disrespect. I feel like I've come home from a party with a bunch of drunk friends and disrupted the sleep of loved ones. My Apologies.

I've felt worse but I've felt better.

2005-07-28T07:54:00.000-07:00

An alcohol whore is what I was before,
Low-life day's ereased in a purple haze,
Maybe, just a craze, a phase we were going through
(Between you and me...the habit continues)
Sobriety's deserted me once again,
Surrender to the bender and no saying, When.
Chewing on a bottle of ignorant bliss
And needs must at times like this
CHORUS
Glass jaw, alcohol whore
Cardboard cut-out lying on the floor,
Lame brain's drunk again...
Stupid dumb-dumb cold plumb insane.
I've felt worse but I've felt better,
A human see-saw to the letter
(It makes me feel so bad-but so nice)
So bad and so nice!
That old devil gravity's having it's way with me,
Bringing me down, surrounding me with misery.
A high-tide suicide, a death ride;
Cut and dried...Inisde I can't hide though I've tried.
Confidence crumbling, can't talk,
I'm mumbling to myself.
I'm stumbling for the top shelf,
Get straight, got to decontaminate before it's too late.
-PWEI

The Incredible P.W.E.I. Vs. The Moral Majority

2005-07-28T07:41:00.000-07:00

You're lost in aw

In the candystore

The cost of the handywork

You adore...you can't afford

So took what you saw

I applaud! It's what

God made pockets for

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pop_Will_Eat_Itself
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tony_Blair

Inspiration.

2005-07-12T09:16:00.000-07:00

inspiration.
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Latley I've been doing a lot of thinking about the past. Regrets? You Betcha.. but then again, how could I be here now with the wisdom of lessons learnt without regrets? You deal with each situation as best as you can when it arises because of exactly who you are.

One of my cats, 'Moggie' is on her last legs, being 20 years of age. Mum is having a very dificult time deciding when and if to put her down. I'm struggling to come to a conclusion aswell.

Whats with the world today, seriously? Sitting back and catching some of the late night news this evening, I have to wonder if I'm the only one watching? If not, why aren't things changing rapidly and dramatically? How is it even remotely accepted (by anyone) that Bush can use the bombings in London as a fresh excuse to stay nested in foreign lands? The more we hunt and use the word terrorism the stronger it will be, longer it will last. I've spent so much of my time being frustrated by the less than mediocre use of human intelligence, and still end up in the same place. I am so sick of hearing worlds like 'enemy' or 'terrorist' and other bullshit negative descriptions for human beings. If the media replaced these words with 'human' or 'person' then we'd all look pretty stupid hey...seriously, think about it.

I've been animating a little more and fairly pleased with the results. Also learnt a couple of new filming techniques which I'm messing with as much as possible. Above is a still from something I shot tonight. Peace be with you (and you and you).

End of an era.

2005-06-30T10:41:00.000-07:00

endofanera
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Woah. Rohan, Dan (me) and Steiney at the Robin Hood for Steiney's farewell from Next Byte. I swear, life is advancing forward at the rate of fuckin knots.
I've decided I need to invest what I have left into something I'm passionate about -will let you know along the lines old soldier, rest your weary shit you deserve it, ill let you know when to look. I promise you, I'll make you looK, because I've promised me.

Sun.

2005-06-24T09:13:00.000-07:00

Sun
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

cockroach: yeah
kanicdan: yeah?
kanicdan: is that all you have to say?
cockroach: it sums up my sentiments
kanicdan: the man of a million brain cells simultaneously doing their best
kanicdan: woah
kanicdan: thats a great statement
cockroach: yeah
recommended read: www.nineplanets.org/sol.html

SMILE

2005-06-21T20:02:00.000-07:00

SMILE
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

The lack of daylight during winter seems to trigger SAD, which causes symptoms including depression, lack of appetite, low libido, fatigue, anxiety and withdrawal from society. Theories as to what causes SAD abound, but it is generally accepted that some neurotransmitters (the chemicals that carry messages around the brain) are affected during winter, especially serotonin, which drops to its lowest levels during the winter months. THEN YOU PUT ON A BITA ERIC BURDON + THE WAR, TRY 'TOBACCO ROAD' SHIT HOMIE DONT WASTE YOUR TIME SAD :) ('Chicken Dance' a little)

Young Bastard

2005-06-15T02:21:00.000-07:00

Young Bastard
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Close your eyes close your ears young man
You've seen and heard all an old man can
Spread the facts on the floor like a fan
throw away the ones that make you feel bad.
-Ben Folds

Aldabra Turtle.

2005-06-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

Aldabra Turtle
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Went to the Adelaide Zoo with my mum yesterday. She works there as a volunteer three times a month and takes people on tours, providing information on the various animals. The variation in gods creatures is vast, each as amazing in their own right to the next. The Aldabra Turtle (pictured) is so old, it has outlived its keepers and records of its age have been lost. It becomes a little surreal when you're walking around looking at the various categories of animals, staring at them understanding their place in the world. They must think we're pretty weird. I do.

Searching for a Green Orb.

2005-05-22T07:46:00.000-07:00

Searching for a Green Orb.
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Well that's it folks. The event dubbed as 'The Last Hurtle Hurrah' has passed through time. Joe's party was quite a ride, packed to the brim of people searching for the truth or doing their best to forget about it. Truth to the matter is we over analyse and what is here is here and if we can smile, smell the roses, stimulate and make someone feel warm and fuzzy for moments in time, then you're doing your job. Once again, Joe, hope you've enjoyed all the celebration surrounding the beginning of your nineteenth year. Having been blessed with the opportunity to interact with you in life is something I will always be grateful for. Well done and keep being a good example of humanity. Peace.

Happy 19th Birthday Joe

2005-05-12T03:21:00.000-07:00

Joe=19
Originally uploaded by kanicman.

Happy Birthday mate, I hope you enjoyed the dinner last night (and the drinks/merchandise from the promo girls at the cumby!). You're the brightest and most well adjusted young man I know, thanks for all the in depth and enjoyable convosations so far. Mad Respect Bruva.

Alpha and Omega.

2005-05-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

At least I'll never smoke another cigarette. Even if I only last one more day from here, thats one more day I can inhale oxygen deeper, run faster, think quicker, smell better. If you still smoke, I plead with you to do the same because I want you to enjoy life a little more aswell. Its hard I know but you can do it and you know it. You rock.

Self tormet and Lovescapes.

2005-05-05T08:12:00.001-07:00

The night before last I dreamt about an ex girlfriend. Waking to that is still painful because it was a very painful breakup, my world was torn apart for a brief moment in time. The dream was about seeing her and having a pleseant convosation, getting things off my chest too... when you wake up and are faced with reality it can be tough, its still a scab. Then last night I had a dream about a girl I don't think I know in reality, but essentailly she came to where I live and within what seemed like minutes the relationship blossomed into something incredibly beautiful and welcomed. Both were as vivid as each other and both impacted my state of mind a fair bit. Dreams can play on you a bit :) Its all gold brutha.

Hey Oly sorry for riding on your 'dream-post' coat tails, felt this had to be blogged :) People, read hydroplain.blogspot.com, olys rants are interesting and thought provoking :)

Rant.

2005-05-04T00:20:00.000-07:00

Eyes are constantly watching me being chased by failure with a kitchen knife in right hand, repeating the stabbing motion. Im pretty fast these days, but its taking my strength to get through this current stretch of grey. Buy yourself Nine Inch Nails (Trent Reznor) latest release: With_Teeth: as usual their work provokes thought in a world that rarely does. More from me soon.